Hi there!
I decided to publish the link to my blog, or rather diary, online. This means that I might have to create somewhere else a blog for my more private stuff.
As I feared my internship courses went very bad and afterwards I decided to quit my education as a secondary school teacher. (tough I still have to succeed for most of coming exams) Which brings my to the question which courses I will follow coming school year?
I would like to work with children (like 5-12 years old) and/or have a caring function. Primary school teacher was my back-up plan, but I am in doubt if I would succeed those studies. Also the job seems very stressful and I perform bad under long term high pressure. Not to forget my biggest current problem is the "teaching itself", to remind which questions I have to pose.
Another option is nursery-class teacher wich is stressful too but I think I might handle the stress better in those circumstancers. Besides I already gained a bit experience with four to five year olds at the playground. My doubts are if I am "creative enough"? (puppet show, bringing a play, singing and playing a flute are not my cup of tea!)
And I can't imagine how I would find activities to fill a schoolyear for the three year olds. They seem capable of so little and have to go to the bathroom like every two hours... Last thing is if I would find a job with this degree. As far I could inform vacancys vary by regio's but the situation in my regio isn't clear to me.
I consider to study nursery-class teacher because:
it's a job which gives satisfaction,
I can work with/ take care of children,
(most of) the kids appreciate your work,
I like to create tinkerings with the kids,
it's definetily not a boring job, ....
Thirth consideration is orthopedagogy. I checked the studybooks by an accuintance and the difficulty seems achievable. The content of the jobs with this degree varies, so that's not so clear to me, but what I heard sounded okay to fine. Minus points: schools who afford this study are quite far away, my father doesn't support this option, it might be physically heavy and I am not so strong and it might be mentally heavy too.
I am still thinking about what I should do.
zaterdag 19 mei 2012
zaterdag 21 april 2012
Gathered by mices II
20 february 2012
Hello, it's really time to update this online diary!
So, what happend the past weeks?
I got my exam results, about which I can't be too exicted. When I look back my study method was so horrible that my results couldn't be good. At least I passed two of the four and I believe I will succeed when I retake them in the summer. :) Also I had my observation internship (I also taught little pieces) and it went not that bad. Within two weeks I will teach my very first whole lessons to real pupils. I wonder what will happen... :p
No idea why everyone dyed their hair red few months ago, after I decided to dye mine purple within a half year. XD I went for it and now I have a dark hair with a purple shine in it. (I didn't intended it to be bright)
I am not sure why, but since a few days I feel quite happy! :D
Maybe it has to do with the progress I made in my "socialising project"? :)
If I compare to a year ago I can now:
- make contact with strangers if I am in a known environnement. Without thinking about it I approached almost all new classmates which entered my classes during the past semester and spontaneously I continue like this! :D
- say "hi" to all my classmates when I pass them and I can see most of them appreciate this
- some people start talking to me spontaneously
21 april 2012
My two internship lessons went bad. I nearly failed both lessons. To be honest I am losing a my courage to continue my courses. A year ago I thought I would never say this. I still have my pharmacy assistent grade fortunately. Since the beginning of this schoolyear I barely created any task I am happy about (or my teachers are satisfied about). My second option is to study for primary school teacher, but I expect this won't be easy at all too. Coming tuesday and wednesday I'll try to teach my third and fouth internship lessons, which are my last internship chances. I don't have faith I'll do it well. Currently I feel a bit down, so I am going to quit the Blogger universe for tonight.
Good night
Hello, it's really time to update this online diary!
So, what happend the past weeks?
I got my exam results, about which I can't be too exicted. When I look back my study method was so horrible that my results couldn't be good. At least I passed two of the four and I believe I will succeed when I retake them in the summer. :) Also I had my observation internship (I also taught little pieces) and it went not that bad. Within two weeks I will teach my very first whole lessons to real pupils. I wonder what will happen... :p
No idea why everyone dyed their hair red few months ago, after I decided to dye mine purple within a half year. XD I went for it and now I have a dark hair with a purple shine in it. (I didn't intended it to be bright)
I am not sure why, but since a few days I feel quite happy! :D
Maybe it has to do with the progress I made in my "socialising project"? :)
If I compare to a year ago I can now:
- make contact with strangers if I am in a known environnement. Without thinking about it I approached almost all new classmates which entered my classes during the past semester and spontaneously I continue like this! :D
- say "hi" to all my classmates when I pass them and I can see most of them appreciate this
- some people start talking to me spontaneously
21 april 2012
My two internship lessons went bad. I nearly failed both lessons. To be honest I am losing a my courage to continue my courses. A year ago I thought I would never say this. I still have my pharmacy assistent grade fortunately. Since the beginning of this schoolyear I barely created any task I am happy about (or my teachers are satisfied about). My second option is to study for primary school teacher, but I expect this won't be easy at all too. Coming tuesday and wednesday I'll try to teach my third and fouth internship lessons, which are my last internship chances. I don't have faith I'll do it well. Currently I feel a bit down, so I am going to quit the Blogger universe for tonight.
Good night
zaterdag 31 december 2011
This is it: 2011
Last minute I decided to write a round up of 2011 at last.
2011 was a stormy year with a lot of clouds and rain, tough some people made the sun shine again.
EDIT: this post turned out quite longer than expected and is actually written just for myself.
Here follow the most important pieces for readers:
The best (of 2011):
- started a blog by myself and even met a blogger (Sara) I was reading already a long time ^^
- learned a lot about alt. culture through to all the blogs I follow and especially The Ultimate Goth Guide. Thank you!
Wishes for the coming year
- increase my social abilities, but in small steps.
final goals this year:
* talk less about myself when meeting someone
* learn to have a decent conversation without pulling myself down or talk about school
* go alone (or with someone else than the one person I always ask to accompany me) to a public event and have a decent conversation with at least three people.
- go to the Emilie Autumn concert! I am so happy she is coming back to Belgium! : D
I wish you all a lovely 2012 and may your wishes come true this year!
The full version is the following:
The worst:
- saw a dear friend walk away from me and I still don't know why
- fell flat on my face a few times while trying to increase my social abilities
(I really mind that I am not able to go to concerts on a regular base or even have a 'casual' social life as a teenager because I am so shy and insecure)
- I started bending recently under the pressure of growing up
(studying or quitting and start to work? Foreseeing the departure of my parental house: how on earth am I ever going to be able to pay for a house, furniture, ...?! And do I want to live alone or do I want someone to share my house with?)
- ID-crisis
The best:
- graduated at secondary education and earned my diploma as a pharmacy assistent.
- still see some people which I really like :) , while I still have no idea why these persons want to hang around with me
- started a blog by myself and even met a blogger (Sara) I was reading already a long time ^^
- went for the first time to a festival all days
- started babysitting (I consider it as a hobby), which is a lot of fun!
- gained some financial independency (through babysitting)
- after all that attention for roller derby, I couldn't resist blowing the dust of my inlineskates recently and went skating for two hours... XD I want to put my skates back on as soon as possible!
- learned how to use a sewing-machine
- started experimenting with make-up more decent (I am satisfied with my current very simple but nice result)
- socialised with the people of my study direction. I don't have 'real friends' at school, but gained a few aquintances. It is a start.
Note: most usefull thing I learned: if you greet someone at a school corridor they aren't annoyed but feel appreciated. (and if they don't respond I just shouldn't pay attention)
- learned a lot about alt. culture through to all the blogs I follow and especially The Ultimate Goth Guide. Thank you!
- got a new ear piercing! ^^ (tragus)
- went to the U.K.!
- bought some very pretty clothing pieces
I started studying at high school but it is very hard. My thougts were to pick an easy direction, related to subjects I find interesting but...
whole december I slept only a few hours a night because I drowned in my homework. Currently I have a study period and I will have my first exam eleven january but I am losing courage and motivation every day. Today I am already quite behind my tight study shedule...
Wishes for next year:
- to regain my courage and energy!
- increase my social abilities, but in small steps.
final goals this year:
* talk less about myself when meeting someone
* learn to have a decent conversation without pulling myself down or talk about school
* go alone (or with someone else than the one person I always ask to accompany me) to a public event and have a decent conversation with at least three people.
- go to the Emilie Autumn concert! I am so happy she is coming back to Belgium! : D
- get over the departure of my former best friend (was friends with her for more than ten years, but once her boyfriend came around...)
- get my driving licence
- during the summer holiday I want to read easy French books
- read some known books, prefarbly with a Dutch/Belgian author
- sew more (still have to work on the lolita dress. Regulary I just have to look at it and be like <3, materialist I am. ^^ )
- have some skating trips
- HAVE FUN!
Decisions:
- fullfilling my current studies as a secondary school teacher/ switch direction to primary school teacher/ start working
- probably I will lose most accuintances from secondary school, but I feel like having a meeting during coming summer holidays with all my classmates (while writing this post I even got a message from some of my classmates asking why I was online right now and not at a party or such. They know I go out rarely but it is so sweet of them! :) )
I wish you all a lovely 2012 and may your wishes come true this year!
2011 was a stormy year with a lot of clouds and rain, tough some people made the sun shine again.
EDIT: this post turned out quite longer than expected and is actually written just for myself.
Here follow the most important pieces for readers:
The best (of 2011):
- started a blog by myself and even met a blogger (Sara) I was reading already a long time ^^
- learned a lot about alt. culture through to all the blogs I follow and especially The Ultimate Goth Guide. Thank you!
Wishes for the coming year
- increase my social abilities, but in small steps.
final goals this year:
* talk less about myself when meeting someone
* learn to have a decent conversation without pulling myself down or talk about school
* go alone (or with someone else than the one person I always ask to accompany me) to a public event and have a decent conversation with at least three people.
- go to the Emilie Autumn concert! I am so happy she is coming back to Belgium! : D
I wish you all a lovely 2012 and may your wishes come true this year!
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| With Mr. Snoes ^^ |
The full version is the following:
The worst:
- saw a dear friend walk away from me and I still don't know why
- fell flat on my face a few times while trying to increase my social abilities
(I really mind that I am not able to go to concerts on a regular base or even have a 'casual' social life as a teenager because I am so shy and insecure)
- I started bending recently under the pressure of growing up
(studying or quitting and start to work? Foreseeing the departure of my parental house: how on earth am I ever going to be able to pay for a house, furniture, ...?! And do I want to live alone or do I want someone to share my house with?)
- ID-crisis
The best:
- graduated at secondary education and earned my diploma as a pharmacy assistent.
- still see some people which I really like :) , while I still have no idea why these persons want to hang around with me
- started a blog by myself and even met a blogger (Sara) I was reading already a long time ^^
- went for the first time to a festival all days
- started babysitting (I consider it as a hobby), which is a lot of fun!
- gained some financial independency (through babysitting)
- after all that attention for roller derby, I couldn't resist blowing the dust of my inlineskates recently and went skating for two hours... XD I want to put my skates back on as soon as possible!
- learned how to use a sewing-machine
- started experimenting with make-up more decent (I am satisfied with my current very simple but nice result)
- socialised with the people of my study direction. I don't have 'real friends' at school, but gained a few aquintances. It is a start.
Note: most usefull thing I learned: if you greet someone at a school corridor they aren't annoyed but feel appreciated. (and if they don't respond I just shouldn't pay attention)
- learned a lot about alt. culture through to all the blogs I follow and especially The Ultimate Goth Guide. Thank you!
- got a new ear piercing! ^^ (tragus)
- went to the U.K.!
- bought some very pretty clothing pieces
I started studying at high school but it is very hard. My thougts were to pick an easy direction, related to subjects I find interesting but...
whole december I slept only a few hours a night because I drowned in my homework. Currently I have a study period and I will have my first exam eleven january but I am losing courage and motivation every day. Today I am already quite behind my tight study shedule...
Wishes for next year:
- to regain my courage and energy!
- increase my social abilities, but in small steps.
final goals this year:
* talk less about myself when meeting someone
* learn to have a decent conversation without pulling myself down or talk about school
* go alone (or with someone else than the one person I always ask to accompany me) to a public event and have a decent conversation with at least three people.
- go to the Emilie Autumn concert! I am so happy she is coming back to Belgium! : D
- get over the departure of my former best friend (was friends with her for more than ten years, but once her boyfriend came around...)
- get my driving licence
- during the summer holiday I want to read easy French books
- read some known books, prefarbly with a Dutch/Belgian author
- sew more (still have to work on the lolita dress. Regulary I just have to look at it and be like <3, materialist I am. ^^ )
- have some skating trips
- HAVE FUN!
Decisions:
- fullfilling my current studies as a secondary school teacher/ switch direction to primary school teacher/ start working
- probably I will lose most accuintances from secondary school, but I feel like having a meeting during coming summer holidays with all my classmates (while writing this post I even got a message from some of my classmates asking why I was online right now and not at a party or such. They know I go out rarely but it is so sweet of them! :) )
I wish you all a lovely 2012 and may your wishes come true this year!
zondag 11 december 2011
vrijdag 4 november 2011
Review: Fanplusfriends "Lolita in Ball:Detachable Sleeves Dress&Peals Chain Choker"
I lacked updates past weeks, but I still read blogs every day.
At first I didn't notice it, but apparently quite some Lolita sneaked into my reading material.
Mixed with my growing fondness for secondhand clothing (rather low budget for frivolities like brand alternative clothing), it caused a new addition to my wardrobe. Before I bought it, I searched for a review or pictures not made by the brand itself, but I couldn't find any so I decided to make a review by myself. :)
I have to say I was a bit overwhelmed when I had a first good look at the dress back home. From the pictures I expected it was much less Lolita and more Goth than it is in reality. Maybe my own mind deceived me?
DISCLAIMER: I do not consider myself as a Lolita or have plans to become one, so my acknowledge is limited. I am not Lolita advisor, if that's what you're looking for you will find plenty people to help you out at other blogs. ^^ I don't have any experience with other Lolita items, I'll review just this one dress.
Brand: Fanplusfriend
Current price: €95,68 ; $132
Description from brand:
" made by cotton, lined;
detachable sleeves;
flower embroidery laces and cotton laces, wide lycra laces trimmings at the bottom;
choker with peals chain;
pin-tuck pleated in front;
the huge bowknots and matched smaller ones are both detachable;
a waist belt in the back, easy to tie tightly to emphasize waist curve;
colors available: black, lilac, pink"
About my own dress:
the former owner wore it only twice because the size was too large.
For myself the size is also too large, but I am going to make some adjustments.
I own the black version.
Attachable parts: two long sleeves, a choker/headdress, pearls chain, one large bowknot, four smaller bowknots .
The fabric:
it's black cotton and looks like it's a very good quality. It is strong, but smells a little odd (didn't dare to wash it yet). I have a bit doubts about the colour retention.
The lace:
five (!) different kinds of lace are used.
They look good, except the kinds used at the half of the skirt and the small bowknots. These are pretty, but the edge is cut and I don't know whether they might raffle after a while.
Figure:
the size is too large for me to have a clear vision on this, but with the waist belt the large size isn't that visible.
The decolletage is too low and I am not sure this is only because my dress is too large.
Bowknots:
very pretty! Tough the safety-pins are of poor quality and can't hold the weight of the bowknots up. Some simple sewing will be sufficient to fix this. ^^
Choker/headdress:
as a choker it's a bit too big (would they adjust the size of the choker to the size of the dress?)
I am not willing to try it on as a headdress. ;)
Pearls chain:
the pearls are ridiculously large. Very plump.
Additional:
there is a small sewing mistake made at the skirt part, but I am sure no one will mention.
Overall view:
there are some remarquations, but it is a very pretty dress and I believe the quality isn't that bad!
When I am not broke anymore I will search for an underskirt. :)
Find this dress online here:
http://www.fanplusfriend.com/servlet/the-840/Lolita-in-Ball-cln-Detachable-Sleeves/Detail
At first I didn't notice it, but apparently quite some Lolita sneaked into my reading material.
Mixed with my growing fondness for secondhand clothing (rather low budget for frivolities like brand alternative clothing), it caused a new addition to my wardrobe. Before I bought it, I searched for a review or pictures not made by the brand itself, but I couldn't find any so I decided to make a review by myself. :)
I have to say I was a bit overwhelmed when I had a first good look at the dress back home. From the pictures I expected it was much less Lolita and more Goth than it is in reality. Maybe my own mind deceived me?
DISCLAIMER: I do not consider myself as a Lolita or have plans to become one, so my acknowledge is limited. I am not Lolita advisor, if that's what you're looking for you will find plenty people to help you out at other blogs. ^^ I don't have any experience with other Lolita items, I'll review just this one dress.
Brand: Fanplusfriend
Current price: €95,68 ; $132
Description from brand:
" made by cotton, lined;
detachable sleeves;
flower embroidery laces and cotton laces, wide lycra laces trimmings at the bottom;
choker with peals chain;
pin-tuck pleated in front;
the huge bowknots and matched smaller ones are both detachable;
a waist belt in the back, easy to tie tightly to emphasize waist curve;
colors available: black, lilac, pink"
About my own dress:
the former owner wore it only twice because the size was too large.
For myself the size is also too large, but I am going to make some adjustments.
I own the black version.
Attachable parts: two long sleeves, a choker/headdress, pearls chain, one large bowknot, four smaller bowknots .
The fabric:
it's black cotton and looks like it's a very good quality. It is strong, but smells a little odd (didn't dare to wash it yet). I have a bit doubts about the colour retention.
The lace:
five (!) different kinds of lace are used.
They look good, except the kinds used at the half of the skirt and the small bowknots. These are pretty, but the edge is cut and I don't know whether they might raffle after a while.
Figure:
the size is too large for me to have a clear vision on this, but with the waist belt the large size isn't that visible.
The decolletage is too low and I am not sure this is only because my dress is too large.
Bowknots:
very pretty! Tough the safety-pins are of poor quality and can't hold the weight of the bowknots up. Some simple sewing will be sufficient to fix this. ^^
Choker/headdress:
as a choker it's a bit too big (would they adjust the size of the choker to the size of the dress?)
I am not willing to try it on as a headdress. ;)
Pearls chain:
the pearls are ridiculously large. Very plump.
Additional:
there is a small sewing mistake made at the skirt part, but I am sure no one will mention.
Overall view:
there are some remarquations, but it is a very pretty dress and I believe the quality isn't that bad!
When I am not broke anymore I will search for an underskirt. :)
Find this dress online here:
http://www.fanplusfriend.com/servlet/the-840/Lolita-in-Ball-cln-Detachable-Sleeves/Detail
A sign of life
I have been procrastinating a blog update for weeks,
time to change that!
Currently I attend high school for a month and a half. It's quite heavy because I have a permanent lack of sleep. The good news is that after three years wondering I probably found out which job I want to practise! :D The bad news: it's not what I study currently. After a lot of doubts, I study a bachelor to become a secondary school teacher biology and Dutch, but more and more I get convinced primary school teacher might be really something for me. But I am too stubborn to change studies. So if this years exams succeed, I might study two more years to become a primary school teacher. At least, that is "The Plan" for now.
At the bright side: the past weeks haven't received any name calling, gossiping, ...
I added some color streaks to my wardrobe, but usually I wander at school again like I fell in the black dye with my clothes on and no one pays attention. :)
[though I have to be careful, I heard already some people gossip about others...]
Few weeks back I attended a lovely party, which turned out to have some sharp edges.
Together with certain other happenings, I was reminded to this part of Jane Eyre.
time to change that!
Currently I attend high school for a month and a half. It's quite heavy because I have a permanent lack of sleep. The good news is that after three years wondering I probably found out which job I want to practise! :D The bad news: it's not what I study currently. After a lot of doubts, I study a bachelor to become a secondary school teacher biology and Dutch, but more and more I get convinced primary school teacher might be really something for me. But I am too stubborn to change studies. So if this years exams succeed, I might study two more years to become a primary school teacher. At least, that is "The Plan" for now.
At the bright side: the past weeks haven't received any name calling, gossiping, ...
I added some color streaks to my wardrobe, but usually I wander at school again like I fell in the black dye with my clothes on and no one pays attention. :)
[though I have to be careful, I heard already some people gossip about others...]
Few weeks back I attended a lovely party, which turned out to have some sharp edges.
Together with certain other happenings, I was reminded to this part of Jane Eyre.
You shouldn't try to catch the truth in jar like a butterfly
[To those who aren't familiar with Jane Eyre: you'll find the clue in the first seconds of the next part. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HUt5yzwFykg&feature=related
I know this story is quite light-footed but I really like the adaptation by the BBC.]
maandag 5 september 2011
Last week's shopping
The title says pretty much. :)
Actually I am not so fond of Appels because of their cheap quality, but I decided not to care that day.
And yes, you might have noticed I joined The Smurfs hype! Well no... Within two weeks I will have my first classes in "higher education" and I decided it might be a good idea to dress a bit more "colorful" then I did in the past years.
Dressing down or not, I picked some adorable boots. These cuties led to much discussion at home, whether I could keep them or not. Though I think they have found a definitive new home at my feet. :)
One thing keeps me doubting: I am 1.73-1.76m tall and the heels are 8 cm.
Do you think I will look way too tall?
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| Appels (R) |
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| Appels (R) |
And yes, you might have noticed I joined The Smurfs hype! Well no... Within two weeks I will have my first classes in "higher education" and I decided it might be a good idea to dress a bit more "colorful" then I did in the past years.
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| Tamaris (R) |
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| Tamaris (R) |
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| Tamaris (R) |
One thing keeps me doubting: I am 1.73-1.76m tall and the heels are 8 cm.
Do you think I will look way too tall?
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